Disbelief

The other day I was talking to one of my best friends and realized I hadn't told her about my no-kissing policy. I explained to her my intent, and she laughed in my face. She genuinely laughed at me and said, "There's no way you're going to do that!" Really? She has that little faith in me? I chuckled and said, "Wanna bet?"

It's a little bit hurtful that people close to me don't believe that I can do it. I went home that night and laid in bed thinking, "What have I gotten myself into?! CAN I do it?" But I never intended this to be easy. And when I kiss my fiance for the first time, knowing that I have saved my lips for him to t>10 months (and probably greater than 3 years), it will be worth it. Looking back on the guys I have kissed, though I don't regret any of them, my life wouldn't be lacking anything if I hadn't kissed them.

I press on.